.a Gift of LIFE.

i had a great Christmas this year... even though i was sick for a week before Christmas, it's still amazing... this Christmas i spent a lot of days with my family and relatives...and with my friends too... Christmas eve was so unbelievable...haha.. there's a kids concert in our church that night, called candy cane lane.. :D it was cute i loved it... this guy courting me went there too... My grandpa also came but not my dad... after the concert i finally introduced him to grandpa...i was nervous about what my grandpa will think or act but it turned out to be good. Grandpa smiled to him and they shaked hands then asked his name... haha.. :D



it happened to be that i was so blessed this year..even though i was hurt at first,, still, i had great months after that..until now... :) i have still many great things that happened to me but again, i want to keep it private..haha :D This Christmas a lot of my prayers came true... like::
-i helped in charities
-SHOPPING of course.haha
-a time to gather with family and relatives
-bonding with Dad(we played basketball) :D
-Legal courting of this guy. :D
-and many more. XD haha

about this Guy,, i feel i'm so lucky that he is courting me... He knows how to respect a girl because no one respected me like the way he respects me...He knows the right thing to do and we are changing each other's lives to good ones... He believes that Love does not need to be in a rush ,Love takes time and if you really love the person, you can do anything what the girl likes...He is not in a rush for us to be together because He knows that we are still young we have a lot of time and still we can work it out someday. :D He goes with me to church and hopefully, i can bring him closer to God... He trusts me with everything...My family knows that he is courting me which is a great thing and they let him court me... :D He always make me feel secured and cared. We also talk like we are sisters and brothers which is a good thing because we got to know each other more..He even tease me sometimes and make fun of me..haha..and that's good.. :D because he is not shy... :)
Someday, the right time will come us..Love is patient :D and all we need to have is patience and trust with each other...right?? :) hope this will come out great... :D We just need to study first because a lot of things will happen in the future... :D


But the most important thing of all, God came to pay for our sins... He gave his life for me and for everyone ... and i give all the glory to God.. :D He is the one who kept me strong all the days i have storms in my life... i just worship Him even though i have problems i still trust him.. God made me in His own image and He loves me so much which means He deserves to be praised. :D I trust Him in all.. :D


Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy.Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.It keeps no record of wrongdoing.It does not delight in evil,But rejoices in the truth.It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.There is nothing love cannot face;There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.In a word, there are three things that last forever:Faith, hope, and love;But the greatest of them all is love.
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

8 days 'til Christmas..

i spent 3 days at home... i was sick but im kinda ok now and about to go to school tomorrow.. this week is our last exams for the year and badly i didn't got the exam of my 6 subjects because of flu.. i'll be taking 3 subjects tomorrow and the 6, maybe next year... :) well, i'm doing fine with everything .. i think.. nothing bothers me that much and that's a great thing.. no problems for Christmas.. :D hahha.. and that's all because of Jesus... :) i was very busy this past few weeks.. tests,quizzes,projects and more... there are so many great things happened to me,my family,friends and others. i don't really want to post what those best things happened cause i like it more to be private and not talked about by everyone... :)

Shopping... i can't wait for shopping...haha.. i have these A-list,B-list and C-list for the gifts to be given...hahha. i want to be organized as i can..and i don't want to spend that much and try to avoid panic buying.. :) yea that's me..hahah ,, i really want to give back to charities or be a member of cancer awareness something,.. i don't know i feel like helping those people who lacks of love... i want to share them the true meaning of Christmas...i want to tell them the story of how Jesus saved our lives and why He came. i just want to give hugs for those helpless children...

most of all, I'm so very thankful to God i have a Father like my Dad... he is such a nice man.. i can see His effort in order for us to live a very beautiful life and he even push harder for a better one... :) When i think about Him, it's like i want to cry because of happiness..Happiness cause God made a perfect Dad for me,my mother and sister... Although sometimes we don't get along with something like with the guy courting me,He is not much in favor with that(i think) but i promised to him that i will not let him down from what he wants me to be...but the good thing is that he let the guy court me... :) also, My mom, who is very hospitable, caring,supports me in all i do, gives me advice for everything and she lets me do things i want (except the bad things) ..haha..i love them both.. :) My sister Nicole, who is very spoiled cause she's the younger one... i still love her even if she beats me sometimes and sometimes she even mock me..hahha..but i just end it up with laughter... and everything will be great.. :) And this Guy, he's still courting me and he is now on his 3rd month.hahha..it's really nice isn't it and yet so sweet.. :) he doesn't change... and i hope this will last and he can wait for me cause i always pray that every night. ..i trust him now than before... and i hope he will not break it. :)



All i want for Christmas is you... :) <3
For with God nothing will be impossible...
-Luke 1:37

.a glimpse of truth. =)

last Saturday, i went to mall of Asia with my aunt,uncle and my two cousins (Janna and yesha).. we spent 10 hours there reading books in different bookstores,buying Christmas decorations and of course, eating.. =D my aunt and her family are so good..they are much like my family.. =) they helped me and my family with so many things... =) so being with them is a lot of fun.. =) they always go out every Saturdays and they let me to come with them sometimes.. =) when I'm with them, it feels like home, they always care for me... it's like they are my 2ND family.. =)

. we watched the fireworks in mall of Asia .. it was SO great.. i have seen may fireworks display there before, but every time i see it, it never gets old.. while i was watching, i was thinking of so many things.. those lights sparkled my eyes and those sounds brought me to euphoria. i was stunned, then i felt weakness... but this fireworks kept me strong....

it's like my life... fireworks can't be seen if you're doing nothing at all.. you have to lit it with a flame... the Flame is like GOD, my family,my relatives,friends,and this special someone.. =) they are the ones who brings out the best of me... fire works are the best lights in the sky.. you can feel it swarm your body with love.. the chill you always wanted... those are so great... i can recall that time, i was so happy.. and this red fireworks came out, i remembered this guy... it even felt more better... i remembered his eyes cause its sparkles like it.. nothing shines more than his eyes... He must really love me so much... i can see it..i can feel it.. and i expect for him not to let go...


different stories,,same feelings..
<3

a new start. =)

it's been a long time since i had another post.. =) I've been so much busy with things in school, family,church,friends and OTHERS. =)

Well, i want to start with my studies... i've been doing great in school.. my grades got up .. . and i'm so happy as well as my dad. =) i'm now interested in studying since i am now a graduating student. i want to change the habit of mine that i am so bored in studying lessons. and now i'm glad to say that i've changed. =) and it's all because of my INSPIRATIONS. =) our school intrams was held starting last monday until thursday... We seniors are the overall champions.. it feels so good. =) hahah.. and at the last day of our intrams, my friends in atheneum (BETTINA,KMAYE and TIMOTHY) came over..and i'm so happy to see them again.. =) i had fun seeing them and being with them even if its a short time. =) i want to spend more time with them.. =)

Me and my mom became much closer now... She trusts me so much this time.she lets me go out even if it's already 7 pm. haha..yea..it's funny..i can't believe it either!. =) also my dad, he lets me do things i want. except i have curfews.. but it's OK.. that's his only way of showing that he cares... but sadly, my dad is going to US this coming January... he will be working there... but it is for our own good so i'll be over it (i think)...i love them both so much and i am so proud having them. =) my sister Nicole, we're still fine but most of the time we argue with some small things but it will end up in laughter. =)

my faith in God is great although sometimes i forget to pray and thank Him for everything, i know He forgives and i promise i will make up to Him. God is so great He made all these wonderful things around me so Good. =) i love God more than Anything.. =)

so there is this boy.. =) he's my batch mate and my friend... he is courting me for more than 1 month until now. =) He is great.. =) i can see his effort in making me believe that he loves me so much.. =) but i still have this feeling that i should be careful. i don't know. i trust him but i remember all the things happen in the past.. I'm afraid that it might happen again .... he is a nice man.. i want to love him but there's something that pulls me off.. it's my past.. i know that time will come for us to be together... =) the great thing is my mom and dad knows that he is courting me. and they allowed me.. also my uncles and aunties,cousins and others.. he is the first man that i introduced to my relatives..they like him..and i like him too.. =) he is also the first man that goes with me to church. =) He is a wonderful person given by God. . =) and i know there's a right time for us. =)




.We will be together.... =)

i don't know what to do from here..

a few days have passed since i realized some things... i get confused of LIFE this time... every morning, i take the jeepney to go to school... while riding in it, i get confused with everything i see in the road...i always see some mentally disordered people...there are many of them..it started as 2, then after 3 weeks they are 3 and the next day 5, then 6.. God, it hurts me so much to see those people. they need help and someone to comfort them..aghh.. if only i could help them.. one morning, a passenger took off the jeepney.. he is an old man and he can't barely walk.he is carrying an old electric fan..his body is half paralyzed ..because i noticed that when he walks, he only uses the left foot and he just slides the right foot. uggH.. i want to get off the jeepney and help him.. but i will be late if i help him... uuhhh God, i dont know..i can see those people looking at him. THEY DON'T EVEN COME NEAR TO THE OLD MAN!!! ..why are they so selfish... some people are very selfish.. they only think for their own good...they say that we are EQUAL then why is this happening?? i think this only because of those selfish people ... yea i may sound like a child but this thing is the one in my heart and my mind... . .

and this GUY i'm talking about all the time in this blog, ,, we talk again at last..! ahahha.. after how many years!haha joke... yea.. he talked to me when we were in my lolo's house to do a project.there he talked to me.. but i feel something ... i feel that i really miss him as my friend. cause as i type this almost every time in my posts,he is a close friend of mine last year..but now,uhhh.. it's depressing to know that we're not...

isn't it hard that a someone very special to you, a someone that completes your day, a friend who is always there, a friend you trusted for a long time and a friend you count on always and helps you and a friend who you walk with everyday will not talk to you anymore and only looks at you when you talk to them??. Gosh, i feel the pain..but i don't know ,, i just love him ..that's it.

LIFE in being in love is not really easy..duhh we all know that. for me, LOVE = RIGHT TIME ... right time means, after you finished college... man,, i cannot control this feeling. i know i should follow all the things i know about love. but i cant do this things. this drives me so crazy ... but one thing for sure that I'll do:: i will keep on trying hard to apply all the things i realize with my life everyday...


"long time friends.then.just one blink of an eye,. she fell in love"

.forget the pain = a birth of fun. XD

...uhhh..what a "PAIN" day.. haha.. i had stomach ache this morning and a fever... uhh God it hurts so bad.. i didn't have the chance to attend the karakol something in our school because of that pain.haha.. so i decided to take a rest and sleep again.. so i did..haha.. i woke up around 10 :30 am... and luckily, my fever is gone ..so i decided to go to our school since all 4th year students are required to go there at 1:00 pm.. but first, i passed by in my mom's office to let her know that i'm already feeling well.. so there i go.hahha.. before i went to school, my mother and i ate at mcdonald's first coz we both haven't taken lunch yet.. haha having good times with your mom is fun.. :D when you start to grow up, and knowing what life really is, you're starting to realize that all good things in this world is with you all the time...like my parents, my sister and of course my friends and love ones. =) nice gifts eh?..hahah. =) i love them.

while eating at McDonald's,, i think i saw a fellow "good friend".haha..my text mate buddy last year.. a college student in our school..it's the first time i saw him but i don't know if its really him..haha..we looked at each other and i thought of who is that person...cause i think i know him..haha.. anyway, i went to school alone ...when i arrived there, i saw my friends and we had fun..haha..we watched the "palaro" in our school..haha.. when the palaro is about to start, i saw "HIM" walking with his friends in the school grounds and they are heading towards where we are seated...haha.. I'm so happy..i thought i will not see himm.haha... he seated not far away from me ..and i'm still shy to talk to him..aghh.. it's really hard to have a crush with a very close friend!..haha.. hate this crush thang!,,hahah.. =)

after the palaro, we went to Chad's house again ang played basketball..hahah.. XD well that's all.. =)



"the very thought of you
and i forget to do
the Little things that everyone ought to do..."

i'm obsessed and stressed.

no classes for today.... i have done nothing good this day. haha.. XD.. I'm very stressed with everything... aghh... i want to cry!.. i'm so confused!.. i'm tired... i want to go out and watch the stars and the moon.. it makes me feel better..*sighh..* i hate this day it's so boring!!!... huh! and i think i will have a flu..aghh. =(

i think i should type down what happened last night:: :D

my father talked to me about colleges and some things... He said, "gusto mo ba talaga sa ust?, ok then,pass the form this Saturday.." i was like::: yea!...hahah.. i want to jump that time!.haha.. i want to hug him or something but i'm shy..haha..and i don't do that and my father doesn't like that.hahaha. XD you know, DAD thingys, haha they are always so busy ..like they always talk with their cellphones..like one time my dad is so busy typing down in his laptop then his two cellphone rang at the same time..ahha..busy people don't like sweet things..haha..they always want to focus on their work ..haha..right? XD that's why i don't want him to bother with his work.hahah

it's about 9:30 pm yesterday, i tried to send "HIM" a comment.. i asked him what other colleges he will take exams with...then i was shocked that he replied..hhaha. XD he said he will take exams at ust or la salle.. then the next sentence said "nga pala, ano nangyari sa paa mo nung isang araw?" hahah..my goodness!...hahah.. he is concerned!..haha..because last Friday, i have bandages on my right foot...it hurts so much.. hahah.. what can you say about this?.hahah.. :) I'm so happy..ahahaha.. i had a VERY good night sleep.. =D

ok... i have classes again tommorow!...wooo..

i don't know when,how it begun, it just happened.

i watched movies all day long... it's a healthy way of forgetting the salts of your life... i enjoyed it.. really..haha. this is the time i watched the television again... i never watched tv since the class started. i don't know.. i think it's boring... anyway, i'm so weird this day. argghh.. my head is full of fairy tale endings. sheekz... AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
want to know my "i dont's" for today????
here

.i dont. :

-want to study at la salle but my parents want me to study there
-want to see my stupid classmates "PRO", jeff and rodnie
-want to eat
-care with the CAT class(i did not attend the cat classes today)
-want to stay here anymore
-like being here
-want a dirt in my room
-want to fail my grades


how bout my "i want's"?

i want::

-to study at UST
-HIM<3
-to shop
-to sleep
-to get out of here
-to go where no one knows me
-to be friends with HIM again
-to worship GOD
-to talk with GOD
-God to know that i love him so much
-to know the answers

..ahhh.. i have nothing to say ..but i think i should share something.. let's start with the fact that i really want him.haha.. well, i dont know... it's gettin hard these days. hearing all the songs here in my laptop, it reminds me of him. . the song boston played,,, after some time, i felt weak then my body shaked and i had goosebumps all over my body... i'm cold.. i don't know what they call it. .. i know i'm doing something wrong...but i know i could get through with it..i'm pretty sure..

.. i remember, all those times when we're together..i remembered he said something to me when we're beside the window of our classroom while the half of the class are in the library... "Okay lang yan, wag mo na kasi maxado isipin.." he said while grabbing my ipod. while saying that words, i looked deep down to his eyes and i saw that he really mean it. .. that was the first time he showed me that he really cares...(because that was the time his close friend that "i loved before" left me...)that person left me,,with his promises washed away...but looking at my friends who really cares like "Him" made me realize that that man is not worth crying for... so back at the scene, he also said that words like he is my father.. he is a little bit angry at the same time he is caring... :) remembering all these makes my day better. :)

.and i never knew.. i fall with him..i have fallen with the person who really cares,loves and taught me what life is..... but the thing is he loves me as a friend..he cares coz i'm his friend and he teaches me coz i'm his friend. .... A FRIEND .... Being friends are the best rather than being lovers... do you agree?.??..or i am just telling these because i'm not ready to get hurt?..


. am i expecting something? .

so near and yet so far.

for the very first time, i had the strangest feeling... it's official... i think i really need him. ..what will i do?. having this feeling is not very easy... this is my first time to fall in love with a very close friend. .. what will i say to him?. . well, it's been 11 days since i haven't posted anything.. I'm too busy with studies and some stuffs. some days are special some are just ordinary.. almost every night i had nightmares. a very weird ones and very scary...i don't want to type it down here..i just don't want to remember it again..

well, our friendship are much better compared last 2 weeks. .. yea.. i think our friendship is growing again..like a baby flower. =) it's good..but it gets even more confusing... most of the time, i caught him looking at me...i don't know..maybe he's looking at my seatmate or something. or it's just FATE that we caught each other looking.ahha. yea.. but for now i would like to be his friend ... =) i thought our friendship will not restore ..but God is so good He started to work on with our friendship ... =) nothing is really impossible if you have God.

.one look and i will die.haha

wow!!.haha.. missed my blog...hahah.. atlast! the week of "death" has ended!..haha..we had our periodical exams this week.. and all i can say is.... "PRESSURE"... hahah.. demn.. so to celebrate this ending of first periodical exams, we decided to go to chad's house... but, i went home first because they have a shootout in our school... so, i bought a cake for my sister first (it's her birthday)... haha..and then went home... i immidiately changed clothes then waited for them to pick me up... until.... i fell asleep..haha.. and after a few hours, my sister opened the door so loud and said "ate , naospital daw si chad..andito sila ate kit at agni nasa baba sila..." then i was so shocked!... i don't know what to do and all i know is my heart beat is like a big drum,, pounding so fast ...and i run down the stairs to catch up with kit and david.. and they told me all about it..the funny thing is, they came here just to pick me up and go to chad's house.!!.haha..well, he's fine now.. even if he was hospitalized,the celebration continues!.haah.. we watched movie in their house and ate many foods..hahah.. =D

,.as days passed, umm.. nothing has changed between me and "him".. aghhh. but it's fine.. but i think, there's a little bit change...hahahahha.. weird!... last monday, when we are taking the exam in filipino, he kept on calling me..haha.he wants to copy my answers..haha.. (oh,, by the way , he sits in front of me.. =D haha) and then i didn't let him copy.. hahha.. =D after the exam, he turned around and look at my eyes i think about 3 seconds?.. and said "si nadine kasi e di ako pinakopya".. haha,,and i just laughed and he smiled back at me..haha..i was like aghhhh!.. sheekz... damn.... !.. those beautiful eyes!..hahah... =D and this week, i caught him looking at me while smiling ..this happened many times..ahaha.. i will not forget last thursday,in the computer laboratory,,.. i'm talking to my friend that time and i noticed that he is sitted at the back..so i simply glance at him all the time... then my friend, told me a joke and i was laughing so hard..and accidentaly looked at him,,and saw him looking at me and he's smiling!..ahha..that time is like a scene on a movie when the girl was smiling with her friends with a wind effect on her hair, then suddenly she accidentally looked at a boy who is looking at her and smiling..!..haha.. it's like this...

me:

him:(he exactly look like this except his hands are in the side of his head..haha)

that was the dumbest imagination i have ever made!..hahah,, =D i feel like we're in a movie that time..aahahah!...stupid eehhhh??..hahha,, =D

well, that's all folks!

=nadine...

.

"boy this isn't easy.."

.your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

..yeaa.. i have already taken the upcat test... some of it are easy.. but i forgot some formulas in the math portion so... yea it's cool..haha.. but i don't know if i passed..hahaha.. =D

yesterday, before i leave the classroom, "HE" lend his hand to me and looked at my eyes... i said to myself " what the heck is he doing?!!... do i have to hold his hand too?.. no.. i'm shy!.. but this is once in a lifetime"..hahah.. so i held his hand then he shaked it... i don't know what that means but i think it means "good luck with the exams tomorrow"... haha.. it's because of the exam we're going to take,... hahha. yeaa.. haha!. that shaking of hands left me in cloud nine until i went to sleep..haha.. i was like " he held my hand tightly and shaked it!" hahaha (stupid me)hahah.. but i have already touched his hands many times last year because we're close that time.. haha.. wooo!.. it makes me dance..hahha... =D and yesterday, i also remembered when he lend his hand to me in our js last February. he asked me to dance with him.. i can still remember what he said : "sayaw tayo.." (let's dance) hahha.. i said, "of course! your my bezpren!"..haha..then while we are dancing, he said in an angry confused look, " what's your perfume today!!!? last time it smells like a goat's milk and now it smells like pineapple!!". haha.. then i hit him in his shoulders...haha.. those days!..haha.. (a guide: i have no crush on him that time.. haha)


,.yea.. i hope i passed the exam. .. :) and next week i think we're going to ust to pass the application form..
:)




"miss Dior Cherie- the perfume is used in our js prom"haha..it reminds me of him. =D

*Σ' αγαπώ*

..i updated my myspace again... yeea.. here's the link.. http://www.myspace.com/ndezjell16 ...

.yesterday i was so bored in our cat training... there's nothing to do and it's not important to me.. yea that's the truth.. i hate being there and i could spend most of my time studying or going to malls than attend that freakin' military sheefz there. aughhh. . . wastin my time...!! but it's a part of academics so i have to be there.. anyway, i saw him yesterday.. i thought he's not going to attend the training. so yea ...we did not talk (expected) *eghhhhh..sigh*. we only look at each other ..yea we're like freakin LOSERS... =/

This morning, i woke up in a hurry cause i'm late for Sunday school... so yea i'm like a cheetah runnin around and around..ahha.eat breakfast, then take a shower and put on clothes... then, i blow dry my hair,,... suddenly i saw a huge orangey-yellowish light... and i realized its the hair dryer.. it's on fire!.. hahah i don't know what to do soo i turned it off then i called my dad.. and he unplugged it..haha.. that was so shocking really!.. haha.. and thank God my hair is not burnt.hahha.. i will cry an ocean when that happened..hahah.. =D but still, i was able to attend my sunday school classes on time... =) learned a lot today from my sunday school teacher.. it was fun but yet confusing,...


and then night falls, i went to our church again for the night service because i'm a back up singer.. and after that i stayed in our church (which i usually do..my house is only few blocks away)... I missed my friends there..because i'm soo busy, i have no time to stay with them when we have fellowships..and i forgot to mention, they are boys... yea cause my girl friends are not there so i have no choice to stay with the boys.. although i have my "kuyapuu jaft" (brother) there and piggy vonne ..so i'm not shy with them anymore... i missed them two so much.. haha they are my close friends at our church..they are nice, sometimes a little dorky (which i find so happy) , they are silly, good jokers, and when you talk to them in a serious situation, they will always be there,, =D that's why i like them 2 so much..even though sometimes they hurt me.. haha.. they pinch me in my face especially piggy... and my kuyapuu, he always pinch and punch me in my arm(but not too hard) and sometimes he pinches me in my cheeks.. but still i love them and they are the best and unique than others...that's why it's really nice if you have christian friends... =)


"Σ' αγαπώ means i love you in Greek"

that is because she is thinking of someone else besides herself....

...eghhh..as time goes on, he becomes more important everyday,... well, not so happy this day.. the red flag is up..i don't know if you know what that means..haha.. anyway, he talked and fooled around with me..haha.. i kept on laughing because of his jokes and his funny face ... i found it so cute..hhahah.. =D yea.. "IT TAKES TIME TO ESTABLISH TIES". =D i caught him looking at me many times... im getting more confused with this..aghhhh... i look like im soo happy ,but no.. because i can't explain this thing that kept on making my mind twirl..and also, i'm afraid if he'll know that i have a huge crush on him... because my closefriend and his closefriend arjay knew that i have a crush on this guy...i'm afraid that arjay might tell him all about this..

..i don't know why i have more guy friends than girls... i can get along with boys easily..because some of the girls in school are malditas.. they do not talk to me....ihave 3 close girl friends.. KIT, SAMANTHA and ARRIANE... i love them so much!.. =) they are my roses too.. =) they are unique than other living creature in this world.. hahaha. =D i Have a friend who is always good to me.. hahah..he makes me laugh even though we don't see each other... because he is now a college student studying in ust.he's my schoolmate last year and he has always stories to tell, which i found very interesting..haha.. i like people who often tell stories to me.. haha.. His name is mark... haha.. i call him hammie because he likes hamtaro...hahah the hamster...hahah..and he looks like it..hahah.. he's a very nice friend.. he even gives me tips in freezing cheese cakes in freezers..hahah.. He is a very responsible friend.. you can always count on him. haha... and i like his attitude.. =D hahah... he is also my rose... =D he is unique than others... =)


.a while ago, i went to church... we have a fellowship called "FBC STAR"... this is a contest of singers... it's like American idol.. hhaha..it's so fun and the voices are so good.. =D i had fun... and after that we went to McDonald's to eat dinner...and i saw my friends there.. =D


adios!.. =D

"i still feel the same even if you're an out of this world lunatic..." hahah.. =)

"..You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed."

i have finished reading the book "the little prince" last night... it's good...but it's too depressing...so yeaaa.. i barely cried..haha.. cause i learned many things from it.. like having friends or establishing ties, taming them and knowing that you're responsible for your friends... i have the answer for everything i can't understand between me and "him'... I FOUND IT IN THIS BOOK... all i need is time... i should not be hurrying from everything... as if i like everything to come out easily... soo yeaa i'm a little bit spoiled...

.this morning, i first saw him in our school when we're going up to our classroom.. when i saw him, it felt like someone hugged me...like his eyes were like soft pillows in my sleep.yeaa..because i woke up this morning like i'm so depressed about everything..i have no energy to go to school, i don't want to eat, i don't want to study and i just want to rest... but it changed when i saw him.. why is it like that?.. he's like a drug that keeps you from being high..the moment you see his face, you just want to smile...hahah...(i remembered his face) .. =) i love his personality... he's so mysterious and nice.. he often laughs and fooling around,he's so smart.. and he's like my dad.. because he is so wise.. he knows many things in life..he knows how to handle it...and he is now really a grown up person. he's the one who showed me what life really is. i saw his sacrifices in his studies. he showed me that the things we need in life are not always instant.... i observed this personality of him when we were in third year high school... because we are so close that time he's almost like my best friend... he always text message me just to say hi and if I'm fine.. because my life is so depressing when we were in 3rd yr.. because of a guy who left me all alone...he's the one who comforts me.. =) this shows what friendship is really is.. =) but i still don't know why i have this feeling for him...

my friend James Philip said this "him" I'm talking about is an "out of this world lunatic" haha..because he's doing something that's so funny..hahha.. like out of this world..sometimes he's looking so far and he's thinking very deeply... and then after a moment he will smile all by himself..hahaha..=)
a part of the book i really liked:
"You're lovely, but you're empty," he went on. "One couldn't die for you. Of course an ordinary passerby would think my rose looked just like you. But my rose, all on her own, is more important than you altogether, since she's the one I've watered. Since she's the one I put under glass. Since she's the one I sheltered behind a screen. Since she's the one for whom I killed the caterpillars (except for two or three for butterflies). Since's she the one I listened to when she complained, or when she boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing at all. Since she's my rose."





"he is my Rose.. soo, i'm responsible for him..he tamed me and i love to look at the star where he is.."
-naDine....

.a secret worth keeping.???

what will you do if your mind tells you to stop falling with someone and at the same time your heart is telling you to love him?... kinda hard right?.. owhhh... anyway, i saw him many times looking at me again..and sometimes when he talks to me, he's smiling.. not like with others...aghhh... what would happen next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....i just don't want to talk about him anymore... i don't want to be in love ....................................................................................





.......................................................................................and i think i'm in love..ahhaha.. (Stupid) ehhhh.. i want to stop falling with him!... i don't want to wait for nothing... =/




,.ok... enough said....



",a secret worth keeping?."

.it's gettin hot in here!.

.what a hot weather today!... it feels like i'm an egg frying in a pan.. hahah..my skin hurts... =D

.well, he talked to me again... and i think we got closer today... (which is good) haha.. I kept staring at him... especially during classes..hahaha.. but he can still catch me looking at him... and i don't want him to know that i have a "feeling" for him... Later this evening, i thought about what would happen IF we'll be together... a part of me says that we should be friends only..because if we'll be together, there are chances of breaking up and our friendship would end.. i don't want that to happen....and a part of me says "he's the perfect guy"... i want to change this kind of my attitude. i don't like imagining things that can never happen because in the end, I'll be hurt... maybe if we could be together, it's better if we're finished studying....because i promised to myself that whoever would be my boyfriend, i'm sure that he's going to be the guy that is walking with me down the ile of the church... =)

for now, i just want to study and concentrate with my future.. i kept on telling myself "Nadine, stop falling with him,"... do you think i am doing the right thing?. keeping my feelings a secret and let my brain win?...i don't know what to follow..But i remembered, GOD is the one i could follow.. i pray to God that our friendship will restore just like when we are in 3rd yr.....and guide me in every decision I'll make..



"be my star"

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.i forgot to post yesterday..ahaha.. anyway, yesterday is so fun... after our cat training, my mother, sister and i went to mall... we bought clothes which i my hobby?..hahah. when i can't go to malls, i feel so depressed...hahah.. (silly girl)..hha.. and yesterday, i saw my close friend jozef at sm.. and he waved at me.. =) i want to ask him if he wants to watch batman the dark night but he's eating.so i said "never mind".. hahaha...


.,.when i woke up this day, my eyes were teary and reddish... as if i cried... i dont know why,.. hmm?... then i went to church today and after that, we went to my uncle's house to eat lunch... nothing so much important for today...



i miss "him"... i have a song for him "next to you by jordin sparks"... i'll post the song here in my blog...

the sun shines again.... i woke up very early ... coz i cant sleep anymore.. i have nothing to do than think of things i can't understand these days..and it affected my mood this day..i stayed silent and felt nowhere in this tiny world.. i can't focus with the things our teachers are discussing...it's so boring.... and something is bothering me ..i think i have a problem with my life.. i don't know what to do.. i know whats right but why do i still do bad things?.. I'm so worried with my future plans...and i fear that i might not succeed with it.

well, about "him" i can't really take my eyes off him... he talked to me this day but only i think,, 2 sentences?ahahah.... i don't know why we don't talk that much,,, when we were in 3rd yr high school, we're almost like brothers and sisters... we always talk, we share what we can share and he even drinks at my bottle of water...!..haha..(those days...) hahaha.. i hope we can restore our friendship before... =)

,.before my day ends, i felt so happy.... i attended youth hour in our church... i always attend in this fellowships... we had a great time... and as the pastor preaches the message, something pops out with my mind.. it said "i found what's wrong with me... " with that time, i realized that my problems can have a solution if I'm with God.. i Forgot all about it which i was really sorry... like a verse in a bible said " the Lord is my Lord and Savior, whom shall i fear?. the Lord is the strength of my life, of whom i shall be afraid?.. ".. with these , i remembered that i have nothing to be afraid of, just have faith in God.. Worship him with all your heart and soul...and prioritize God first.... =)

and now my day will end up with a smile again.. =)



"maybe we're friends,maybe were more, maybe its just my imagination"...

.at.school. <333

..my day started with a huge yawn,. hahahha.. (What??!!) and i think it will end up with a smile..haha..i thank God for this another day he had given to me..!. =) i remembered one of my classmates, whose name is joven, (a very close friend) made me laugh so hard i can't barely breathe...haha.. i said to him that i want to be a president someday...he said, "ya , presidente ng mga pugo".. haha..pugo is the tagalog word for egg of a duck... haha.. and it makes me so happy..hahha... that brightens up my day..and also my seat mates cj and mati... we always fool around with jokes and teasing with each other.. hahah...

..back to "him".. i caught him again..but for now, i'm not "kinikilig" that much anymore. i dont know why... hahah..maybe because we don't talk with each other... but when he looks at me, i can see the moon twinkling over the stars..hhaa..( what a dumb way of explaining my feelings).. =D

about my late late something,,,, the prefect of discipline didn't talked to me... which means, i'm not kick out..ahaha.. =) at school, we voted for the SC officers.. and sadly my friend, (david) did not won ... hahah.. we laughed at him so hard.. haha.. =) i have a video in our class room which i taken this morning.. but i'll post it tomorrow... because i'm so tired and i want to sleep... =)

goodnyte!,,pray!... =)


"i'm here can't you see??"

.brrrrrrrrrrrrr.... i'm freezing..hahaa.. =) today, we watched a documentary about people who lives with garbage.... i felt so sad for those people.. i hate to see many people starving for food and thirsty for clean water... i hope someday,when i have a job, i can help those people...

i cried this day... because i went home for lunch and then when i arrived back at my school, the guard told me that i am late and said "give me your id".. but, I'm still not late... i don't know what to do... i want to kill that guard!... I'm so afraid now to be late because i'm under Prohibition in our school.. and if I'll be late again, i should transfer to others school (or others call it kick out)... and i don't want that to happen... i don't know what will happen tomorrow... ='(

even if i was sad this morning, still, he made me smile.. i caught him looking at me again!..hahah.. =p one time, he turned around and look at my eyes. it's so long i couldn't take it so i look away..hahhaha.. (so dumb) hahah.. we don't talk to each other that much... haha.. but it's ok its not a big deal... haha.. i remembered, one of my classmates told me to speak with him.. because he said that i should make a move... i said "bakit?.. para saan? di ko naman kailangan boses niya" hahha.. i'm not that obsessed with him.. i only admire his personality.. =). and anyway., i got a very high grade in our unit test in math.. 46/50... quite good huh?....hahhah..nxt time, i'll make it perfect... =)

.i want to thank my friend david for installing warcraft in my laptop..hahhaha..!.. =)



"let me share the warmth with you..."

.soothing in the eyes.

"what about now?"

.what a fine weather today... i like it..it's very cold.. =) hahah.... anyway, i was bored in school today but one thing i mean, "one person" awakes my soul..hahahh.. (sounds freakishly dumb) .. and he is ________________________________ haha..his eyes made me go "oooHhhh lala.." this morning until we left the school.. haha.. i caught him again looking at me... hahha.. and the only thing i did is look at him too..hahah.. sometimes i fool around with him... hahaa... i think i should start counting how many times i will caught im looking at me...i'll start tommorow..ahahah.. =) ok ,,enough with him.. not very exciting at all... =)

,.I'm not still finished with the book I'm reading.. " the little prince" .. i can't understand some of the lines but i can still follow the story. . hahha.. =) that book reminds me of "him" (the one whose eyes is like a sunset) ..haha... because in that book, the prince loves sunsets...and i love sunsets too.. so much... i dream of sitting in a hill, where i can see the sunset...or in a beach watching the sun sinking in the ocean.. =).. i really love sunsets.. sunsets make me feel happy... it is a very sentimental scene..it's very peaceful, the reds and oranges soothes my eyes and it feels like home... God is really good right?.. He made a very soothing masterpiece like the sunset... As it dips below the skies, i reminds me of those times i flew high, and with those memories, i have the hope and strength to continue with my dreams...Sunsets always let me know that life has a meaning after all the troubles i made... which means i found hope with sunsets and also the one who made it who is GOD.. =)

"i dreamt of a scene that me and "him" were watching the sunset at the pearl-like sand of the beach...and as we watch the sun sinks at the bottom of the sea, he was telling me that he loves me and ready to live with me until the last sunset we'll see".. -nadin3

.what is this sunset i see?.

"i hear angels singing"... every time i hear praise songs , it makes me glad... it feels like I'm loved... and i like that feeling... =) anyway, i don't know what's happening to me right now... my feelings are blended all together and i don't know what makes me clumsy and not in focus.. I'm lost in this world... i think.. it just felt like I'm not with myself this past few days. something is bothering me.. and i think it's a boy...i have a crush on him.. well,, he's my friend... a close one...but a part of me says i don't have a crush on him...or am i just telling myself to stop falling with him?.. so that our friendship will not end?.. well, i don't know really.. . i think i have only a tiny feeling for him.. i don't want to fall really deep with him.. "sayang naman ang friendship" coz maybe if i tell him that i have feelings for him , he will not talk to me anymore... he is a kind a person who's really quiet ,,he's not open with others, sometimes he is noisy and often laughing too hard.. when he smiles it looks like the stars in the night sky twinkling around... hahah.. it might sound funny but that's the way i see it.. =) .when he looks at me, it's like I'm watching a sunset in the sea..you'll see it in his eyes... looking in it very deeply i can see everything i love!.. .

sometimes, i often catch him looking at me... he 's looking at my eyes.. what might it mean?,, well, we'll see.... =) and also, he caught me many times when I'm staring at him.. every time i wonder at things, i see him looking at me and then i think we are looking at each other about 3 seconds?.. haha.. but i think I'm not in love with him... i only admire his personality and characteristics... =) well, that's all for now.. I'm so sleepy.. =) goodnight..let's see what will happen tommorow

.tHe start.

hey..haha...new here.. =) i just got tired with multiply...haha..coz all of my blogs there were posted months ago and i hate the topics i posted.. .i hate everything there..aghh,, it's very irritating.. hahha.. =P .. anyway, .. today is not much a good day?.. haha... hmm..maybe because of the rain... it rained all day... and that's why I'm wet when i arrived home from school....but its fine..,

my studies??..doing great this year.... coz finally im graduating from higschool this year..and i can't wait... =) what is it like being in college?... i'm excited but more nervous... i don't know what people i'll be facing with.. and the challenges that i might encounter.. , and about college, my entrance test in UP will be on august 2... and i hope i'll be able to pass the exam... =)