i don't know when,how it begun, it just happened.

i watched movies all day long... it's a healthy way of forgetting the salts of your life... i enjoyed it.. really..haha. this is the time i watched the television again... i never watched tv since the class started. i don't know.. i think it's boring... anyway, i'm so weird this day. argghh.. my head is full of fairy tale endings. sheekz... AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
want to know my "i dont's" for today????
here

.i dont. :

-want to study at la salle but my parents want me to study there
-want to see my stupid classmates "PRO", jeff and rodnie
-want to eat
-care with the CAT class(i did not attend the cat classes today)
-want to stay here anymore
-like being here
-want a dirt in my room
-want to fail my grades


how bout my "i want's"?

i want::

-to study at UST
-HIM<3
-to shop
-to sleep
-to get out of here
-to go where no one knows me
-to be friends with HIM again
-to worship GOD
-to talk with GOD
-God to know that i love him so much
-to know the answers

..ahhh.. i have nothing to say ..but i think i should share something.. let's start with the fact that i really want him.haha.. well, i dont know... it's gettin hard these days. hearing all the songs here in my laptop, it reminds me of him. . the song boston played,,, after some time, i felt weak then my body shaked and i had goosebumps all over my body... i'm cold.. i don't know what they call it. .. i know i'm doing something wrong...but i know i could get through with it..i'm pretty sure..

.. i remember, all those times when we're together..i remembered he said something to me when we're beside the window of our classroom while the half of the class are in the library... "Okay lang yan, wag mo na kasi maxado isipin.." he said while grabbing my ipod. while saying that words, i looked deep down to his eyes and i saw that he really mean it. .. that was the first time he showed me that he really cares...(because that was the time his close friend that "i loved before" left me...)that person left me,,with his promises washed away...but looking at my friends who really cares like "Him" made me realize that that man is not worth crying for... so back at the scene, he also said that words like he is my father.. he is a little bit angry at the same time he is caring... :) remembering all these makes my day better. :)

.and i never knew.. i fall with him..i have fallen with the person who really cares,loves and taught me what life is..... but the thing is he loves me as a friend..he cares coz i'm his friend and he teaches me coz i'm his friend. .... A FRIEND .... Being friends are the best rather than being lovers... do you agree?.??..or i am just telling these because i'm not ready to get hurt?..


. am i expecting something? .