.it's gettin hot in here!.

.what a hot weather today!... it feels like i'm an egg frying in a pan.. hahah..my skin hurts... =D

.well, he talked to me again... and i think we got closer today... (which is good) haha.. I kept staring at him... especially during classes..hahaha.. but he can still catch me looking at him... and i don't want him to know that i have a "feeling" for him... Later this evening, i thought about what would happen IF we'll be together... a part of me says that we should be friends only..because if we'll be together, there are chances of breaking up and our friendship would end.. i don't want that to happen....and a part of me says "he's the perfect guy"... i want to change this kind of my attitude. i don't like imagining things that can never happen because in the end, I'll be hurt... maybe if we could be together, it's better if we're finished studying....because i promised to myself that whoever would be my boyfriend, i'm sure that he's going to be the guy that is walking with me down the ile of the church... =)

for now, i just want to study and concentrate with my future.. i kept on telling myself "Nadine, stop falling with him,"... do you think i am doing the right thing?. keeping my feelings a secret and let my brain win?...i don't know what to follow..But i remembered, GOD is the one i could follow.. i pray to God that our friendship will restore just like when we are in 3rd yr.....and guide me in every decision I'll make..



"be my star"