*Σ' αγαπώ*

..i updated my myspace again... yeea.. here's the link.. http://www.myspace.com/ndezjell16 ...

.yesterday i was so bored in our cat training... there's nothing to do and it's not important to me.. yea that's the truth.. i hate being there and i could spend most of my time studying or going to malls than attend that freakin' military sheefz there. aughhh. . . wastin my time...!! but it's a part of academics so i have to be there.. anyway, i saw him yesterday.. i thought he's not going to attend the training. so yea ...we did not talk (expected) *eghhhhh..sigh*. we only look at each other ..yea we're like freakin LOSERS... =/

This morning, i woke up in a hurry cause i'm late for Sunday school... so yea i'm like a cheetah runnin around and around..ahha.eat breakfast, then take a shower and put on clothes... then, i blow dry my hair,,... suddenly i saw a huge orangey-yellowish light... and i realized its the hair dryer.. it's on fire!.. hahah i don't know what to do soo i turned it off then i called my dad.. and he unplugged it..haha.. that was so shocking really!.. haha.. and thank God my hair is not burnt.hahha.. i will cry an ocean when that happened..hahah.. =D but still, i was able to attend my sunday school classes on time... =) learned a lot today from my sunday school teacher.. it was fun but yet confusing,...


and then night falls, i went to our church again for the night service because i'm a back up singer.. and after that i stayed in our church (which i usually do..my house is only few blocks away)... I missed my friends there..because i'm soo busy, i have no time to stay with them when we have fellowships..and i forgot to mention, they are boys... yea cause my girl friends are not there so i have no choice to stay with the boys.. although i have my "kuyapuu jaft" (brother) there and piggy vonne ..so i'm not shy with them anymore... i missed them two so much.. haha they are my close friends at our church..they are nice, sometimes a little dorky (which i find so happy) , they are silly, good jokers, and when you talk to them in a serious situation, they will always be there,, =D that's why i like them 2 so much..even though sometimes they hurt me.. haha.. they pinch me in my face especially piggy... and my kuyapuu, he always pinch and punch me in my arm(but not too hard) and sometimes he pinches me in my cheeks.. but still i love them and they are the best and unique than others...that's why it's really nice if you have christian friends... =)


"Σ' αγαπώ means i love you in Greek"

that is because she is thinking of someone else besides herself....

...eghhh..as time goes on, he becomes more important everyday,... well, not so happy this day.. the red flag is up..i don't know if you know what that means..haha.. anyway, he talked and fooled around with me..haha.. i kept on laughing because of his jokes and his funny face ... i found it so cute..hhahah.. =D yea.. "IT TAKES TIME TO ESTABLISH TIES". =D i caught him looking at me many times... im getting more confused with this..aghhhh... i look like im soo happy ,but no.. because i can't explain this thing that kept on making my mind twirl..and also, i'm afraid if he'll know that i have a huge crush on him... because my closefriend and his closefriend arjay knew that i have a crush on this guy...i'm afraid that arjay might tell him all about this..

..i don't know why i have more guy friends than girls... i can get along with boys easily..because some of the girls in school are malditas.. they do not talk to me....ihave 3 close girl friends.. KIT, SAMANTHA and ARRIANE... i love them so much!.. =) they are my roses too.. =) they are unique than other living creature in this world.. hahaha. =D i Have a friend who is always good to me.. hahah..he makes me laugh even though we don't see each other... because he is now a college student studying in ust.he's my schoolmate last year and he has always stories to tell, which i found very interesting..haha.. i like people who often tell stories to me.. haha.. His name is mark... haha.. i call him hammie because he likes hamtaro...hahah the hamster...hahah..and he looks like it..hahah.. he's a very nice friend.. he even gives me tips in freezing cheese cakes in freezers..hahah.. He is a very responsible friend.. you can always count on him. haha... and i like his attitude.. =D hahah... he is also my rose... =D he is unique than others... =)


.a while ago, i went to church... we have a fellowship called "FBC STAR"... this is a contest of singers... it's like American idol.. hhaha..it's so fun and the voices are so good.. =D i had fun... and after that we went to McDonald's to eat dinner...and i saw my friends there.. =D


adios!.. =D

"i still feel the same even if you're an out of this world lunatic..." hahah.. =)

"..You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed."

i have finished reading the book "the little prince" last night... it's good...but it's too depressing...so yeaaa.. i barely cried..haha.. cause i learned many things from it.. like having friends or establishing ties, taming them and knowing that you're responsible for your friends... i have the answer for everything i can't understand between me and "him'... I FOUND IT IN THIS BOOK... all i need is time... i should not be hurrying from everything... as if i like everything to come out easily... soo yeaa i'm a little bit spoiled...

.this morning, i first saw him in our school when we're going up to our classroom.. when i saw him, it felt like someone hugged me...like his eyes were like soft pillows in my sleep.yeaa..because i woke up this morning like i'm so depressed about everything..i have no energy to go to school, i don't want to eat, i don't want to study and i just want to rest... but it changed when i saw him.. why is it like that?.. he's like a drug that keeps you from being high..the moment you see his face, you just want to smile...hahah...(i remembered his face) .. =) i love his personality... he's so mysterious and nice.. he often laughs and fooling around,he's so smart.. and he's like my dad.. because he is so wise.. he knows many things in life..he knows how to handle it...and he is now really a grown up person. he's the one who showed me what life really is. i saw his sacrifices in his studies. he showed me that the things we need in life are not always instant.... i observed this personality of him when we were in third year high school... because we are so close that time he's almost like my best friend... he always text message me just to say hi and if I'm fine.. because my life is so depressing when we were in 3rd yr.. because of a guy who left me all alone...he's the one who comforts me.. =) this shows what friendship is really is.. =) but i still don't know why i have this feeling for him...

my friend James Philip said this "him" I'm talking about is an "out of this world lunatic" haha..because he's doing something that's so funny..hahha.. like out of this world..sometimes he's looking so far and he's thinking very deeply... and then after a moment he will smile all by himself..hahaha..=)
a part of the book i really liked:
"You're lovely, but you're empty," he went on. "One couldn't die for you. Of course an ordinary passerby would think my rose looked just like you. But my rose, all on her own, is more important than you altogether, since she's the one I've watered. Since she's the one I put under glass. Since she's the one I sheltered behind a screen. Since she's the one for whom I killed the caterpillars (except for two or three for butterflies). Since's she the one I listened to when she complained, or when she boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing at all. Since she's my rose."





"he is my Rose.. soo, i'm responsible for him..he tamed me and i love to look at the star where he is.."
-naDine....

.a secret worth keeping.???

what will you do if your mind tells you to stop falling with someone and at the same time your heart is telling you to love him?... kinda hard right?.. owhhh... anyway, i saw him many times looking at me again..and sometimes when he talks to me, he's smiling.. not like with others...aghhh... what would happen next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....i just don't want to talk about him anymore... i don't want to be in love ....................................................................................





.......................................................................................and i think i'm in love..ahhaha.. (Stupid) ehhhh.. i want to stop falling with him!... i don't want to wait for nothing... =/




,.ok... enough said....



",a secret worth keeping?."

.it's gettin hot in here!.

.what a hot weather today!... it feels like i'm an egg frying in a pan.. hahah..my skin hurts... =D

.well, he talked to me again... and i think we got closer today... (which is good) haha.. I kept staring at him... especially during classes..hahaha.. but he can still catch me looking at him... and i don't want him to know that i have a "feeling" for him... Later this evening, i thought about what would happen IF we'll be together... a part of me says that we should be friends only..because if we'll be together, there are chances of breaking up and our friendship would end.. i don't want that to happen....and a part of me says "he's the perfect guy"... i want to change this kind of my attitude. i don't like imagining things that can never happen because in the end, I'll be hurt... maybe if we could be together, it's better if we're finished studying....because i promised to myself that whoever would be my boyfriend, i'm sure that he's going to be the guy that is walking with me down the ile of the church... =)

for now, i just want to study and concentrate with my future.. i kept on telling myself "Nadine, stop falling with him,"... do you think i am doing the right thing?. keeping my feelings a secret and let my brain win?...i don't know what to follow..But i remembered, GOD is the one i could follow.. i pray to God that our friendship will restore just like when we are in 3rd yr.....and guide me in every decision I'll make..



"be my star"

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.i forgot to post yesterday..ahaha.. anyway, yesterday is so fun... after our cat training, my mother, sister and i went to mall... we bought clothes which i my hobby?..hahah. when i can't go to malls, i feel so depressed...hahah.. (silly girl)..hha.. and yesterday, i saw my close friend jozef at sm.. and he waved at me.. =) i want to ask him if he wants to watch batman the dark night but he's eating.so i said "never mind".. hahaha...


.,.when i woke up this day, my eyes were teary and reddish... as if i cried... i dont know why,.. hmm?... then i went to church today and after that, we went to my uncle's house to eat lunch... nothing so much important for today...



i miss "him"... i have a song for him "next to you by jordin sparks"... i'll post the song here in my blog...

the sun shines again.... i woke up very early ... coz i cant sleep anymore.. i have nothing to do than think of things i can't understand these days..and it affected my mood this day..i stayed silent and felt nowhere in this tiny world.. i can't focus with the things our teachers are discussing...it's so boring.... and something is bothering me ..i think i have a problem with my life.. i don't know what to do.. i know whats right but why do i still do bad things?.. I'm so worried with my future plans...and i fear that i might not succeed with it.

well, about "him" i can't really take my eyes off him... he talked to me this day but only i think,, 2 sentences?ahahah.... i don't know why we don't talk that much,,, when we were in 3rd yr high school, we're almost like brothers and sisters... we always talk, we share what we can share and he even drinks at my bottle of water...!..haha..(those days...) hahaha.. i hope we can restore our friendship before... =)

,.before my day ends, i felt so happy.... i attended youth hour in our church... i always attend in this fellowships... we had a great time... and as the pastor preaches the message, something pops out with my mind.. it said "i found what's wrong with me... " with that time, i realized that my problems can have a solution if I'm with God.. i Forgot all about it which i was really sorry... like a verse in a bible said " the Lord is my Lord and Savior, whom shall i fear?. the Lord is the strength of my life, of whom i shall be afraid?.. ".. with these , i remembered that i have nothing to be afraid of, just have faith in God.. Worship him with all your heart and soul...and prioritize God first.... =)

and now my day will end up with a smile again.. =)



"maybe we're friends,maybe were more, maybe its just my imagination"...

.at.school. <333

..my day started with a huge yawn,. hahahha.. (What??!!) and i think it will end up with a smile..haha..i thank God for this another day he had given to me..!. =) i remembered one of my classmates, whose name is joven, (a very close friend) made me laugh so hard i can't barely breathe...haha.. i said to him that i want to be a president someday...he said, "ya , presidente ng mga pugo".. haha..pugo is the tagalog word for egg of a duck... haha.. and it makes me so happy..hahha... that brightens up my day..and also my seat mates cj and mati... we always fool around with jokes and teasing with each other.. hahah...

..back to "him".. i caught him again..but for now, i'm not "kinikilig" that much anymore. i dont know why... hahah..maybe because we don't talk with each other... but when he looks at me, i can see the moon twinkling over the stars..hhaa..( what a dumb way of explaining my feelings).. =D

about my late late something,,,, the prefect of discipline didn't talked to me... which means, i'm not kick out..ahaha.. =) at school, we voted for the SC officers.. and sadly my friend, (david) did not won ... hahah.. we laughed at him so hard.. haha.. =) i have a video in our class room which i taken this morning.. but i'll post it tomorrow... because i'm so tired and i want to sleep... =)

goodnyte!,,pray!... =)


"i'm here can't you see??"

.brrrrrrrrrrrrr.... i'm freezing..hahaa.. =) today, we watched a documentary about people who lives with garbage.... i felt so sad for those people.. i hate to see many people starving for food and thirsty for clean water... i hope someday,when i have a job, i can help those people...

i cried this day... because i went home for lunch and then when i arrived back at my school, the guard told me that i am late and said "give me your id".. but, I'm still not late... i don't know what to do... i want to kill that guard!... I'm so afraid now to be late because i'm under Prohibition in our school.. and if I'll be late again, i should transfer to others school (or others call it kick out)... and i don't want that to happen... i don't know what will happen tomorrow... ='(

even if i was sad this morning, still, he made me smile.. i caught him looking at me again!..hahah.. =p one time, he turned around and look at my eyes. it's so long i couldn't take it so i look away..hahhaha.. (so dumb) hahah.. we don't talk to each other that much... haha.. but it's ok its not a big deal... haha.. i remembered, one of my classmates told me to speak with him.. because he said that i should make a move... i said "bakit?.. para saan? di ko naman kailangan boses niya" hahha.. i'm not that obsessed with him.. i only admire his personality.. =). and anyway., i got a very high grade in our unit test in math.. 46/50... quite good huh?....hahhah..nxt time, i'll make it perfect... =)

.i want to thank my friend david for installing warcraft in my laptop..hahhaha..!.. =)



"let me share the warmth with you..."

.soothing in the eyes.

"what about now?"

.what a fine weather today... i like it..it's very cold.. =) hahah.... anyway, i was bored in school today but one thing i mean, "one person" awakes my soul..hahahh.. (sounds freakishly dumb) .. and he is ________________________________ haha..his eyes made me go "oooHhhh lala.." this morning until we left the school.. haha.. i caught him again looking at me... hahha.. and the only thing i did is look at him too..hahah.. sometimes i fool around with him... hahaa... i think i should start counting how many times i will caught im looking at me...i'll start tommorow..ahahah.. =) ok ,,enough with him.. not very exciting at all... =)

,.I'm not still finished with the book I'm reading.. " the little prince" .. i can't understand some of the lines but i can still follow the story. . hahha.. =) that book reminds me of "him" (the one whose eyes is like a sunset) ..haha... because in that book, the prince loves sunsets...and i love sunsets too.. so much... i dream of sitting in a hill, where i can see the sunset...or in a beach watching the sun sinking in the ocean.. =).. i really love sunsets.. sunsets make me feel happy... it is a very sentimental scene..it's very peaceful, the reds and oranges soothes my eyes and it feels like home... God is really good right?.. He made a very soothing masterpiece like the sunset... As it dips below the skies, i reminds me of those times i flew high, and with those memories, i have the hope and strength to continue with my dreams...Sunsets always let me know that life has a meaning after all the troubles i made... which means i found hope with sunsets and also the one who made it who is GOD.. =)

"i dreamt of a scene that me and "him" were watching the sunset at the pearl-like sand of the beach...and as we watch the sun sinks at the bottom of the sea, he was telling me that he loves me and ready to live with me until the last sunset we'll see".. -nadin3

.what is this sunset i see?.

"i hear angels singing"... every time i hear praise songs , it makes me glad... it feels like I'm loved... and i like that feeling... =) anyway, i don't know what's happening to me right now... my feelings are blended all together and i don't know what makes me clumsy and not in focus.. I'm lost in this world... i think.. it just felt like I'm not with myself this past few days. something is bothering me.. and i think it's a boy...i have a crush on him.. well,, he's my friend... a close one...but a part of me says i don't have a crush on him...or am i just telling myself to stop falling with him?.. so that our friendship will not end?.. well, i don't know really.. . i think i have only a tiny feeling for him.. i don't want to fall really deep with him.. "sayang naman ang friendship" coz maybe if i tell him that i have feelings for him , he will not talk to me anymore... he is a kind a person who's really quiet ,,he's not open with others, sometimes he is noisy and often laughing too hard.. when he smiles it looks like the stars in the night sky twinkling around... hahah.. it might sound funny but that's the way i see it.. =) .when he looks at me, it's like I'm watching a sunset in the sea..you'll see it in his eyes... looking in it very deeply i can see everything i love!.. .

sometimes, i often catch him looking at me... he 's looking at my eyes.. what might it mean?,, well, we'll see.... =) and also, he caught me many times when I'm staring at him.. every time i wonder at things, i see him looking at me and then i think we are looking at each other about 3 seconds?.. haha.. but i think I'm not in love with him... i only admire his personality and characteristics... =) well, that's all for now.. I'm so sleepy.. =) goodnight..let's see what will happen tommorow

.tHe start.

hey..haha...new here.. =) i just got tired with multiply...haha..coz all of my blogs there were posted months ago and i hate the topics i posted.. .i hate everything there..aghh,, it's very irritating.. hahha.. =P .. anyway, .. today is not much a good day?.. haha... hmm..maybe because of the rain... it rained all day... and that's why I'm wet when i arrived home from school....but its fine..,

my studies??..doing great this year.... coz finally im graduating from higschool this year..and i can't wait... =) what is it like being in college?... i'm excited but more nervous... i don't know what people i'll be facing with.. and the challenges that i might encounter.. , and about college, my entrance test in UP will be on august 2... and i hope i'll be able to pass the exam... =)