.forget the pain = a birth of fun. XD

...uhhh..what a "PAIN" day.. haha.. i had stomach ache this morning and a fever... uhh God it hurts so bad.. i didn't have the chance to attend the karakol something in our school because of that pain.haha.. so i decided to take a rest and sleep again.. so i did..haha.. i woke up around 10 :30 am... and luckily, my fever is gone ..so i decided to go to our school since all 4th year students are required to go there at 1:00 pm.. but first, i passed by in my mom's office to let her know that i'm already feeling well.. so there i go.hahha.. before i went to school, my mother and i ate at mcdonald's first coz we both haven't taken lunch yet.. haha having good times with your mom is fun.. :D when you start to grow up, and knowing what life really is, you're starting to realize that all good things in this world is with you all the time...like my parents, my sister and of course my friends and love ones. =) nice gifts eh?..hahah. =) i love them.

while eating at McDonald's,, i think i saw a fellow "good friend".haha..my text mate buddy last year.. a college student in our school..it's the first time i saw him but i don't know if its really him..haha..we looked at each other and i thought of who is that person...cause i think i know him..haha.. anyway, i went to school alone ...when i arrived there, i saw my friends and we had fun..haha..we watched the "palaro" in our school..haha.. when the palaro is about to start, i saw "HIM" walking with his friends in the school grounds and they are heading towards where we are seated...haha.. I'm so happy..i thought i will not see himm.haha... he seated not far away from me ..and i'm still shy to talk to him..aghh.. it's really hard to have a crush with a very close friend!..haha.. hate this crush thang!,,hahah.. =)

after the palaro, we went to Chad's house again ang played basketball..hahah.. XD well that's all.. =)



"the very thought of you
and i forget to do
the Little things that everyone ought to do..."

i'm obsessed and stressed.

no classes for today.... i have done nothing good this day. haha.. XD.. I'm very stressed with everything... aghh... i want to cry!.. i'm so confused!.. i'm tired... i want to go out and watch the stars and the moon.. it makes me feel better..*sighh..* i hate this day it's so boring!!!... huh! and i think i will have a flu..aghh. =(

i think i should type down what happened last night:: :D

my father talked to me about colleges and some things... He said, "gusto mo ba talaga sa ust?, ok then,pass the form this Saturday.." i was like::: yea!...hahah.. i want to jump that time!.haha.. i want to hug him or something but i'm shy..haha..and i don't do that and my father doesn't like that.hahaha. XD you know, DAD thingys, haha they are always so busy ..like they always talk with their cellphones..like one time my dad is so busy typing down in his laptop then his two cellphone rang at the same time..ahha..busy people don't like sweet things..haha..they always want to focus on their work ..haha..right? XD that's why i don't want him to bother with his work.hahah

it's about 9:30 pm yesterday, i tried to send "HIM" a comment.. i asked him what other colleges he will take exams with...then i was shocked that he replied..hhaha. XD he said he will take exams at ust or la salle.. then the next sentence said "nga pala, ano nangyari sa paa mo nung isang araw?" hahah..my goodness!...hahah.. he is concerned!..haha..because last Friday, i have bandages on my right foot...it hurts so much.. hahah.. what can you say about this?.hahah.. :) I'm so happy..ahahaha.. i had a VERY good night sleep.. =D

ok... i have classes again tommorow!...wooo..

i don't know when,how it begun, it just happened.

i watched movies all day long... it's a healthy way of forgetting the salts of your life... i enjoyed it.. really..haha. this is the time i watched the television again... i never watched tv since the class started. i don't know.. i think it's boring... anyway, i'm so weird this day. argghh.. my head is full of fairy tale endings. sheekz... AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
want to know my "i dont's" for today????
here

.i dont. :

-want to study at la salle but my parents want me to study there
-want to see my stupid classmates "PRO", jeff and rodnie
-want to eat
-care with the CAT class(i did not attend the cat classes today)
-want to stay here anymore
-like being here
-want a dirt in my room
-want to fail my grades


how bout my "i want's"?

i want::

-to study at UST
-HIM<3
-to shop
-to sleep
-to get out of here
-to go where no one knows me
-to be friends with HIM again
-to worship GOD
-to talk with GOD
-God to know that i love him so much
-to know the answers

..ahhh.. i have nothing to say ..but i think i should share something.. let's start with the fact that i really want him.haha.. well, i dont know... it's gettin hard these days. hearing all the songs here in my laptop, it reminds me of him. . the song boston played,,, after some time, i felt weak then my body shaked and i had goosebumps all over my body... i'm cold.. i don't know what they call it. .. i know i'm doing something wrong...but i know i could get through with it..i'm pretty sure..

.. i remember, all those times when we're together..i remembered he said something to me when we're beside the window of our classroom while the half of the class are in the library... "Okay lang yan, wag mo na kasi maxado isipin.." he said while grabbing my ipod. while saying that words, i looked deep down to his eyes and i saw that he really mean it. .. that was the first time he showed me that he really cares...(because that was the time his close friend that "i loved before" left me...)that person left me,,with his promises washed away...but looking at my friends who really cares like "Him" made me realize that that man is not worth crying for... so back at the scene, he also said that words like he is my father.. he is a little bit angry at the same time he is caring... :) remembering all these makes my day better. :)

.and i never knew.. i fall with him..i have fallen with the person who really cares,loves and taught me what life is..... but the thing is he loves me as a friend..he cares coz i'm his friend and he teaches me coz i'm his friend. .... A FRIEND .... Being friends are the best rather than being lovers... do you agree?.??..or i am just telling these because i'm not ready to get hurt?..


. am i expecting something? .

so near and yet so far.

for the very first time, i had the strangest feeling... it's official... i think i really need him. ..what will i do?. having this feeling is not very easy... this is my first time to fall in love with a very close friend. .. what will i say to him?. . well, it's been 11 days since i haven't posted anything.. I'm too busy with studies and some stuffs. some days are special some are just ordinary.. almost every night i had nightmares. a very weird ones and very scary...i don't want to type it down here..i just don't want to remember it again..

well, our friendship are much better compared last 2 weeks. .. yea.. i think our friendship is growing again..like a baby flower. =) it's good..but it gets even more confusing... most of the time, i caught him looking at me...i don't know..maybe he's looking at my seatmate or something. or it's just FATE that we caught each other looking.ahha. yea.. but for now i would like to be his friend ... =) i thought our friendship will not restore ..but God is so good He started to work on with our friendship ... =) nothing is really impossible if you have God.

.one look and i will die.haha

wow!!.haha.. missed my blog...hahah.. atlast! the week of "death" has ended!..haha..we had our periodical exams this week.. and all i can say is.... "PRESSURE"... hahah.. demn.. so to celebrate this ending of first periodical exams, we decided to go to chad's house... but, i went home first because they have a shootout in our school... so, i bought a cake for my sister first (it's her birthday)... haha..and then went home... i immidiately changed clothes then waited for them to pick me up... until.... i fell asleep..haha.. and after a few hours, my sister opened the door so loud and said "ate , naospital daw si chad..andito sila ate kit at agni nasa baba sila..." then i was so shocked!... i don't know what to do and all i know is my heart beat is like a big drum,, pounding so fast ...and i run down the stairs to catch up with kit and david.. and they told me all about it..the funny thing is, they came here just to pick me up and go to chad's house.!!.haha..well, he's fine now.. even if he was hospitalized,the celebration continues!.haah.. we watched movie in their house and ate many foods..hahah.. =D

,.as days passed, umm.. nothing has changed between me and "him".. aghhh. but it's fine.. but i think, there's a little bit change...hahahahha.. weird!... last monday, when we are taking the exam in filipino, he kept on calling me..haha.he wants to copy my answers..haha.. (oh,, by the way , he sits in front of me.. =D haha) and then i didn't let him copy.. hahha.. =D after the exam, he turned around and look at my eyes i think about 3 seconds?.. and said "si nadine kasi e di ako pinakopya".. haha,,and i just laughed and he smiled back at me..haha..i was like aghhhh!.. sheekz... damn.... !.. those beautiful eyes!..hahah... =D and this week, i caught him looking at me while smiling ..this happened many times..ahaha.. i will not forget last thursday,in the computer laboratory,,.. i'm talking to my friend that time and i noticed that he is sitted at the back..so i simply glance at him all the time... then my friend, told me a joke and i was laughing so hard..and accidentaly looked at him,,and saw him looking at me and he's smiling!..ahha..that time is like a scene on a movie when the girl was smiling with her friends with a wind effect on her hair, then suddenly she accidentally looked at a boy who is looking at her and smiling..!..haha.. it's like this...

me:

him:(he exactly look like this except his hands are in the side of his head..haha)

that was the dumbest imagination i have ever made!..hahah,, =D i feel like we're in a movie that time..aahahah!...stupid eehhhh??..hahha,, =D

well, that's all folks!

=nadine...

.

"boy this isn't easy.."

.your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

..yeaa.. i have already taken the upcat test... some of it are easy.. but i forgot some formulas in the math portion so... yea it's cool..haha.. but i don't know if i passed..hahaha.. =D

yesterday, before i leave the classroom, "HE" lend his hand to me and looked at my eyes... i said to myself " what the heck is he doing?!!... do i have to hold his hand too?.. no.. i'm shy!.. but this is once in a lifetime"..hahah.. so i held his hand then he shaked it... i don't know what that means but i think it means "good luck with the exams tomorrow"... haha.. it's because of the exam we're going to take,... hahha. yeaa.. haha!. that shaking of hands left me in cloud nine until i went to sleep..haha.. i was like " he held my hand tightly and shaked it!" hahaha (stupid me)hahah.. but i have already touched his hands many times last year because we're close that time.. haha.. wooo!.. it makes me dance..hahha... =D and yesterday, i also remembered when he lend his hand to me in our js last February. he asked me to dance with him.. i can still remember what he said : "sayaw tayo.." (let's dance) hahha.. i said, "of course! your my bezpren!"..haha..then while we are dancing, he said in an angry confused look, " what's your perfume today!!!? last time it smells like a goat's milk and now it smells like pineapple!!". haha.. then i hit him in his shoulders...haha.. those days!..haha.. (a guide: i have no crush on him that time.. haha)


,.yea.. i hope i passed the exam. .. :) and next week i think we're going to ust to pass the application form..
:)




"miss Dior Cherie- the perfume is used in our js prom"haha..it reminds me of him. =D