the night has thousand eyes.

Where there is faith in God, there is hope.

Where there is hope, there is peace.

Where there is peace, there is FREEDOM.

i really didn't know what happened this night. everything was right as we we're exchanging stories and having fun. I consider our church as a home. Where I find love, care, acceptance and understanding. God is really great isn't he? He has this way of changing lives of people through struggles and pain.

Well, being an older sister or older brother is a very tough thing to stand upon since the young ones look upon everything you do. You gotta have a lot of faith in God,watch every move your doing and every words you say. We've been through a trial which pain, anger and pride stood out in us.maybe God has a purpose why a small problem turned out to be a big one... i cried a lot because i am afraid that we might have this boundaries between us especially the camp is near which we need each other for it to be a great success.. as we were fixing things out, i believe God talked to me. He said,

This is a test of Faith you must overcome it.

i believe he's preparing us for the next activities in our church and for us not to be moved from the Stand we promised to God--- to lead and reach out to the younger generation.

i feel blessed. blessed that this is a test of faith.. that this is done by the enemy who wants us to break. this trial is made for us to OVERCOME and be more Close with our Sisters and Brothers in Christ.

There is a gift of friendship

That God has give to me,

He put you there to help me

With the things I can not see,

A friend is someone special

Who's always there for you,

In good times and in bad

A friend will see you through,

God's the one who gives us friends

This is his special gift,

Our friends are always there

When we need that extra lift

We Conquered. :)

Forgiveness is the key.

the friends we keep the longest are the friends who forgave us the most. And the essence of true friendship is knowing what to overlook.

lead me to the cross

it hurts so bad. that the people you love will also be the one to hurt you the most.your family...my family... are they gone?

college life.

there. another chapter of my life has just started. i thought it was terrifying. but i was wrong... i have a lot of friends but still i miss my old ones... i have fun being with my new friends. they are caring and thoughtful. ofcourse my studies are the most important, and i feel i'm doing good with it. except in trigonometry. :D hahah XD. every day i learn alot of new things. it's nice to know every time i have a question to God He will always answer me quickly. i can hear him & i can see what He wants me to do. i know at times i maybe weak.especially when i fail to do or have something. but there's always something that pops out in my mind. It said " You are strong and you will not break." .

things in life doesn't always happen what you planned it to be. sometimes you fail and sometimes you succeed. when you fail, think about the positive side of it that you learned something. and this should be your motivation. do not let yourself down because there's nothing good will happen to you.The best is always yet to come. And when you succeed, stay who you are .but do not stay what you are. sometimes we feel that if we succeed at one thing, it would be the end. but it' s not always enough. there maybe a lot more to come and continue to do good for you and the people around you.pursue every priorities you made but be sure that you can stand on it.

as of now, i can see that i am really blessed. i have this circle of friends makes me happy and i have this family who supports me in everything i do. maybe love will come out this stage of my life, but still i know i'm not prepared for it. the right time will come.and i will pursue every good deed for him not to suffer any bad part of me. i know that this man that God created for me deserves every good thing in this world. :) i pray while i'm waiting. :)

now i'm living my life what it has to offer and i'm happy that it is true that the best is always be given to me at the right time. :)
Live life full of faith and actions!

Sometimes in life,you find a special
friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the
world.
Someone who convinces you that there really
is
an unlocked door just waiting for you to open
it.

:

"They say that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.
If I learn to accept that pain is part of life, I will be better able to endure
the difficult times and then move on, leaving the pain behind me."

responsible.

I have a primary responsibility to myself:

to make myself into the best person I can possibly be.

Then, and only then, will I have something worthwhile to
share.

summer workshop.

as the fingers cross down the strings,

a great sound came from within.

and i fell in love with the sound.

yea.we have this workshop in our church... it's really fun.. I'm in the guitar class with kuya chok & aldrin. :D haha.. actually, i know how to play the guitar since i was in first year high school... but i want to know more. :D i'm really interested with this because i really love music. .. :) having a teacher like kuya chok & kuya aldrin is so cool.. haha .. although they clown around often, still we learn so much about guitars... :D

Enrollment Baby! XD

So i think this is the start..

the start of my dream.

nothing will make me weak.

for i have Christ in me...

Finally i'm enrolled. I'll be taking up Physical Therapy for 5 years in De La Salle Health sciences institute.. i'm really fascinated with this course because i really like serving people.. i'm so exhausted this day... My mom and i done alot of things in La salle...i will not forget the PPD (don't know what PPd stands for). it's a physical exam where the nurse will inject something IN your skin not in the veins..!! i was like "eeew! my skin is blowing up!!" ahaha... XD Anyway, i'm really nervous for my first year of college.. especially i don't have a friend taking up the same course as i do. But i met this girl and her mom a while ago...her mom talk to my mom first then all i know they are introducing themselves. It's good to know that her daughter named Nina will take up the course PT. she gave me her number so that we have contact with each other...It's a good start for us since she has no friends that will take up the same course too. I hope we can be good friends. :D

My schedule is very hectic! But i can say that it's kinda good too..because i don't have classes in Tuesdays and Saturdays.. wee! hahah..and for my hectic schedule, my parents are deciding for me to stay in the campus dorm... i can't take the transportation from our house to my school! my goodness! haha.. :D

i want to share my schedule. :D

Monday...

1. National Service Training program 1 8:30 am- 11:30 am

2. Communication arts & skills(english) 1:00 pm-2:30 pm

3. Kursong Rizal (social studies) 02:30 pm- 4:00 pm

4. Basic Computer Concepts & operations 4:00 pm- 5:30 pm

wednesday

1.Physical Fitness/Dance Aerobics/ 7:30 am- 9:30am

Phil. Games

2. Kursong Rizal (SS) 02:30 pm- 4:00pm

3.Basic Comp. Concepts & 04:00 pm-5:30 pm

Operations (LAb)

Thursday

1. General Psychology 07:00 am- 08:30 am

2.Kasaysayan at Pamahalaan ng pilipinas 08:30 am- 10:00 am

3. Foundations of Christian Faith 10:00 am- 11:30 am

4. College Algebra 1:00 pm- 2:30 pm

5. Trigonometry 04:00 pm- 05:30pm

Friday

1. Komunikasyon sa akademikong pilipino 07:00 am- 10:00 am

2. Communication Arts & skills 11:00 am- 2:30 pm

Animo La Salle! :D

glass jars.

she was once in a glass jar
gasping for air and reaching the top.
she never gave up
never lose hope.
she was trapped and torn,
but still she stood up and stepped forward.

headshot.

Breathing underwater is easier
than talking to you.
Much less suffocating as well.
Yet equally mind numbing.

Page up.

Sometimes I feel like crystal only a little more tainted.

Yet just as breakable and weak.

Why couldn’t I be more like diamond instead?

Strong and beautiful.

And most importantly, completely indestructible.

summer would be ending soon. i can say that i made myself so busy this summer. i find it fun and memorable. i spent most of the time in our church serving people. i'm glad i shared the good news to them. that God died for us. i can say that i'm becoming more closer to God which is good...

A lot of things happened this summer.. and the one i told you all the time here is gone.. No more courting.... maybe it's really the best for us. all the time i hear God telling me to stop this. but i did not listen. so there God took him away from me.and i know that there's a reason why..and it's not good to blame this to God...maybe we're better if we're friends... for us not to suffer all the pain the courting may bring. I trust God that He will work on our both lives...our separate lives... I'm happy that i shared to him the truth about God and i can say, that's the best gift i gave to him.

I'll get over this soon cause i know God will bring much more blessing to me.and i trust God what will happen tomorrow. And i have a lot of friends surrounding me, ready to offer whatever i need.

nonsense title.

.in my head.

I’ll gain some friends—some memories, too
To myself, I vow to be true.
And I’ll push myself to make it through
Without giving myself the chance to fail.

i LOve this. :D

i read this article... i'ts so inspiring,, :D



I Kissed WAITING Goodbye!

YES! You read the title correctly. I’ve decided that I’m through with waiting. That I would stop this period of nothingness and start pursuing. No more and I say it again no more. Waiting causes so much trouble for me, so much heartache and fear. It’s time I remove this things from me instead I will start to pursue. Yes I will start to pursue.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue to improve my character that the one created for me would not have to suffer my ill attitude, bad temper, sharp tongue, and fits of range.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue my dreams and ambitions that the one created for me might share in all my accomplishment and he/she would carry my name with a smile on his/her face.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue deeper friendships with those around me that the one created for me would be surrounded by amazing people who cares for me and would eventually care for him/her as well.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue accountability that all my actions, words and even my thoughts would be kept in check. That the one created for me would not have to carry all my burden alone.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue to develop my self that the one created for me would not only be attracted for my character and heart but for everything about me.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue purity that I would be able to give the one created for me the greatest gift I could give her/him. (I hope he/she is doing the same for me)

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue righteousness that I may be right with God and with men. That the one created for me would not have to suffer because of my wrong actions.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will pursue Holiness, that I would be set apart. Holy before God. That the one created for me would see that I am different. That I am out of this world.

YES I WILL START PURSUING!I will stop waiting, stop doing nothing! For the one created for me deserves more than just to be waited upon.

he/She deserves the best. I will do my best to be the best for him/her.

I’m through with waiting I have kissed it goodbye.
:D

HE is everything to me. :)

watch this video and listen to the song. i really want to share this all to you. :)

I grew up in Sunday school I memorized the Golden Rule And how Jesus came to set the sinner free I know the story inside out I can tell you all about The path that led Him up to Calvary But ask me why He loves me And I don't know what to say But I'll never be the same Because He changed my life when He became...Everything to me He's more than a story More than words on a page of history He's the air that I breathe The water I thirst for And the ground beneath my feet He's everything, everything to me We're living in uncertain times And more and more I find that I'm aware Of just how fragile life can be I want to tell the world I found A love that turned my life around They need to know that they can taste and see Now every day I'm praying Just to give my heart away I want to live for Jesus So that someone else might see that He is...Everything to me He's more than a story More than words on a page of history He's the air that I breathe The water I thirst for And the ground beneath my feet He's everything And looking back over my life at the end I'll go to meet You saying You've beenYou're everything to me You're more than a story More than words on a page of history You're everything to me You're more than a story More than words on a page of history You're the air that I breathe The water I thirst forAnd the ground beneath my feet You're everythingLord, You're everything to me ....

`nadine...

Last days.but.will never be forgotten.

well, it's been 4 years that i have been studying at San Sebastian... I can't really get over that I'll be graduating on march 28... My life was shaped during this 4 years of my high school life... I remembered, our adviser told us to write an essay about our 4 year stay in San Sebastian... while i am writing, I just want to cry... but i kept it inside because i'm shy to let my tears out in front of my classmates who really became like brothers and sisters to me... Our section, St. Sebastian-- is not like other sections... we have strong relationships together and commitment with each other. We may not be getting along sometimes but i'm proud to tell that it will end up only with jokes and laughter. :D we are wild but sincere. Our friendship will not last.. :D My life when i was in 1st year is really different from who i am now.. I was a very shy girl, quiet and i don't feel like talking and having friends with boys before. But now, all of these things are changed. i Can tell you that when i was in 2nd year, i turned out to be a bad girl followed by being a really really bad girl in 3rd year high school. Even if i did all those things that is not good for me, im still thankful that i have learned a lot from it. i'm proud to say that i learned my lesson in all the wrong things i've done and it has helped me to be this kind of girl now. i can say that the bad girl is now back to be the good girl. i am now matured to do childish things that i know will not help me with my future and will not be good in God's eyes. For i know that God helped me to realize things and He saved me from all those things. :D Now, God is giving me so much blessings in my life especially in my family. :D

i will miss my friends,teachers and all the persons that helped me to reach another part of my life. :)
My parents and sister, who were always supportive with the things i need, i wish they knew how thankful i am to them even if we have problems sometimes.
To this guy, i know this will be stronger and we will be rejoicing in truth in the eyes of God.

-you're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter

-God will always be the Author of my life

i stay inlove. :D

i kept thinking about all the days that happened to me in the past...what are the things i did that seems to be so wrong.. truthfully, i regret all those things..but somehow I'm thankful because i learned a lot from it..i will never be this kind of person now...

since it's the month of hearts,, i want to post down what i think about the hardest word to explain.. LOVE..

For me,, Love always takes time to feel ,realize and understand... Love should always be patient...and me, being in a relationship with this guy,, he's still courting me for about 6 months now.. and this past days, we somehow cannot be together often because he always has training for his basketball team and me, always has projects to do and activities to organize in our church..but eve if we can't be together, i still trust him ..and i know he trusts me too..but as time goes by, i can see the real him.. and i don't know,,,if i like it... i believe that i shouldn't said to him that "don't do this things" blah blah blah... i want him to grow for his own.i want him to realize what to do to change his life into a better one. and i always pray that we can make this right...not to a fight.. i also pray that he can still wait for the right time for us because somehow, I'm already falling... and me, i always try to be the Good girl...

one night,, i asked a question to this guy.. i asked a lot of things .and he answered it not the way i expected ...he answered it so sincerely.. :).he ended it up asking me "hanggang kelan ba ako magaantay?" i replied.."pano kung sabihin kong pagkatapos ko magcolllege?"...he said "magaantay parin ako..." God, what a guy.. :) i can't describe this blessing God has given me... :)


I trust God for everything...
till next time.. :)

have to think.

i had a long break writing in my blog.but i have no break in doing things i should do...i feel so stressed out and out of this world... i need a break and thought "How about to write in my Blog?" ... I find writing here makes me feel better... well, anyways, i was so busy with academics because I'll be graduating on march...research papers,projects and exams...i almost can't sleep everyday... all i am doing is to write on our research paper and think about it almost every second of my life. actually, I'm so stressed thinking about it..but i have to be strong... i always keep telling myself to be strong with things facing me now. ..

i have many things in my mind ...i can't sleep at night. i always stay up because things just shoots my mind. .. and it keeps me up all day. i think i have insomnia..but that sounds weird and impossible. .. i admit it i have so much problems and i think i can't do it anymore... i just want to fall down and have my life to rest. but still, there are many who keeps me on going... even if they hurt me with the things they say everyday to me, i just want to hug them and ask them a favor to trust me...they are my parents.especially my dad. i love him so much. even if he keeps on telling me everyday hurtful words. but i accept all the things he says because that's all i can do. i don't want us to argue so i just accept all those things even if he says wrong about what he thinks, i just cry it out .i dont want to fight ... Fighting hurts me so much...

hope that this will be better soon.
:(
GOD is here with me.
i know this will be better.

.a Gift of LIFE.

i had a great Christmas this year... even though i was sick for a week before Christmas, it's still amazing... this Christmas i spent a lot of days with my family and relatives...and with my friends too... Christmas eve was so unbelievable...haha.. there's a kids concert in our church that night, called candy cane lane.. :D it was cute i loved it... this guy courting me went there too... My grandpa also came but not my dad... after the concert i finally introduced him to grandpa...i was nervous about what my grandpa will think or act but it turned out to be good. Grandpa smiled to him and they shaked hands then asked his name... haha.. :D



it happened to be that i was so blessed this year..even though i was hurt at first,, still, i had great months after that..until now... :) i have still many great things that happened to me but again, i want to keep it private..haha :D This Christmas a lot of my prayers came true... like::
-i helped in charities
-SHOPPING of course.haha
-a time to gather with family and relatives
-bonding with Dad(we played basketball) :D
-Legal courting of this guy. :D
-and many more. XD haha

about this Guy,, i feel i'm so lucky that he is courting me... He knows how to respect a girl because no one respected me like the way he respects me...He knows the right thing to do and we are changing each other's lives to good ones... He believes that Love does not need to be in a rush ,Love takes time and if you really love the person, you can do anything what the girl likes...He is not in a rush for us to be together because He knows that we are still young we have a lot of time and still we can work it out someday. :D He goes with me to church and hopefully, i can bring him closer to God... He trusts me with everything...My family knows that he is courting me which is a great thing and they let him court me... :D He always make me feel secured and cared. We also talk like we are sisters and brothers which is a good thing because we got to know each other more..He even tease me sometimes and make fun of me..haha..and that's good.. :D because he is not shy... :)
Someday, the right time will come us..Love is patient :D and all we need to have is patience and trust with each other...right?? :) hope this will come out great... :D We just need to study first because a lot of things will happen in the future... :D


But the most important thing of all, God came to pay for our sins... He gave his life for me and for everyone ... and i give all the glory to God.. :D He is the one who kept me strong all the days i have storms in my life... i just worship Him even though i have problems i still trust him.. God made me in His own image and He loves me so much which means He deserves to be praised. :D I trust Him in all.. :D


Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy.Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.It keeps no record of wrongdoing.It does not delight in evil,But rejoices in the truth.It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.There is nothing love cannot face;There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.In a word, there are three things that last forever:Faith, hope, and love;But the greatest of them all is love.
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

8 days 'til Christmas..

i spent 3 days at home... i was sick but im kinda ok now and about to go to school tomorrow.. this week is our last exams for the year and badly i didn't got the exam of my 6 subjects because of flu.. i'll be taking 3 subjects tomorrow and the 6, maybe next year... :) well, i'm doing fine with everything .. i think.. nothing bothers me that much and that's a great thing.. no problems for Christmas.. :D hahha.. and that's all because of Jesus... :) i was very busy this past few weeks.. tests,quizzes,projects and more... there are so many great things happened to me,my family,friends and others. i don't really want to post what those best things happened cause i like it more to be private and not talked about by everyone... :)

Shopping... i can't wait for shopping...haha.. i have these A-list,B-list and C-list for the gifts to be given...hahha. i want to be organized as i can..and i don't want to spend that much and try to avoid panic buying.. :) yea that's me..hahah ,, i really want to give back to charities or be a member of cancer awareness something,.. i don't know i feel like helping those people who lacks of love... i want to share them the true meaning of Christmas...i want to tell them the story of how Jesus saved our lives and why He came. i just want to give hugs for those helpless children...

most of all, I'm so very thankful to God i have a Father like my Dad... he is such a nice man.. i can see His effort in order for us to live a very beautiful life and he even push harder for a better one... :) When i think about Him, it's like i want to cry because of happiness..Happiness cause God made a perfect Dad for me,my mother and sister... Although sometimes we don't get along with something like with the guy courting me,He is not much in favor with that(i think) but i promised to him that i will not let him down from what he wants me to be...but the good thing is that he let the guy court me... :) also, My mom, who is very hospitable, caring,supports me in all i do, gives me advice for everything and she lets me do things i want (except the bad things) ..haha..i love them both.. :) My sister Nicole, who is very spoiled cause she's the younger one... i still love her even if she beats me sometimes and sometimes she even mock me..hahha..but i just end it up with laughter... and everything will be great.. :) And this Guy, he's still courting me and he is now on his 3rd month.hahha..it's really nice isn't it and yet so sweet.. :) he doesn't change... and i hope this will last and he can wait for me cause i always pray that every night. ..i trust him now than before... and i hope he will not break it. :)



All i want for Christmas is you... :) <3
For with God nothing will be impossible...
-Luke 1:37

.a glimpse of truth. =)

last Saturday, i went to mall of Asia with my aunt,uncle and my two cousins (Janna and yesha).. we spent 10 hours there reading books in different bookstores,buying Christmas decorations and of course, eating.. =D my aunt and her family are so good..they are much like my family.. =) they helped me and my family with so many things... =) so being with them is a lot of fun.. =) they always go out every Saturdays and they let me to come with them sometimes.. =) when I'm with them, it feels like home, they always care for me... it's like they are my 2ND family.. =)

. we watched the fireworks in mall of Asia .. it was SO great.. i have seen may fireworks display there before, but every time i see it, it never gets old.. while i was watching, i was thinking of so many things.. those lights sparkled my eyes and those sounds brought me to euphoria. i was stunned, then i felt weakness... but this fireworks kept me strong....

it's like my life... fireworks can't be seen if you're doing nothing at all.. you have to lit it with a flame... the Flame is like GOD, my family,my relatives,friends,and this special someone.. =) they are the ones who brings out the best of me... fire works are the best lights in the sky.. you can feel it swarm your body with love.. the chill you always wanted... those are so great... i can recall that time, i was so happy.. and this red fireworks came out, i remembered this guy... it even felt more better... i remembered his eyes cause its sparkles like it.. nothing shines more than his eyes... He must really love me so much... i can see it..i can feel it.. and i expect for him not to let go...


different stories,,same feelings..
<3

a new start. =)

it's been a long time since i had another post.. =) I've been so much busy with things in school, family,church,friends and OTHERS. =)

Well, i want to start with my studies... i've been doing great in school.. my grades got up .. . and i'm so happy as well as my dad. =) i'm now interested in studying since i am now a graduating student. i want to change the habit of mine that i am so bored in studying lessons. and now i'm glad to say that i've changed. =) and it's all because of my INSPIRATIONS. =) our school intrams was held starting last monday until thursday... We seniors are the overall champions.. it feels so good. =) hahah.. and at the last day of our intrams, my friends in atheneum (BETTINA,KMAYE and TIMOTHY) came over..and i'm so happy to see them again.. =) i had fun seeing them and being with them even if its a short time. =) i want to spend more time with them.. =)

Me and my mom became much closer now... She trusts me so much this time.she lets me go out even if it's already 7 pm. haha..yea..it's funny..i can't believe it either!. =) also my dad, he lets me do things i want. except i have curfews.. but it's OK.. that's his only way of showing that he cares... but sadly, my dad is going to US this coming January... he will be working there... but it is for our own good so i'll be over it (i think)...i love them both so much and i am so proud having them. =) my sister Nicole, we're still fine but most of the time we argue with some small things but it will end up in laughter. =)

my faith in God is great although sometimes i forget to pray and thank Him for everything, i know He forgives and i promise i will make up to Him. God is so great He made all these wonderful things around me so Good. =) i love God more than Anything.. =)

so there is this boy.. =) he's my batch mate and my friend... he is courting me for more than 1 month until now. =) He is great.. =) i can see his effort in making me believe that he loves me so much.. =) but i still have this feeling that i should be careful. i don't know. i trust him but i remember all the things happen in the past.. I'm afraid that it might happen again .... he is a nice man.. i want to love him but there's something that pulls me off.. it's my past.. i know that time will come for us to be together... =) the great thing is my mom and dad knows that he is courting me. and they allowed me.. also my uncles and aunties,cousins and others.. he is the first man that i introduced to my relatives..they like him..and i like him too.. =) he is also the first man that goes with me to church. =) He is a wonderful person given by God. . =) and i know there's a right time for us. =)




.We will be together.... =)